i am relatively worried about the control those anti depressants have over my state of emotions. i forgot my medication this morning, and has been blowing up at everyone since. my mom, my friends.. i had to control my tempers with nicotine, and considering my sore throat, reds are very bad for me at this point of time. ): ah well at least their frm singapore.

wanted t leave breakfast and a good luck note outside his door today.. set my alarm to 5am and i actually woke up! but as i was putting the food into the oven i fell asleep again and by the time my mom woke me up on the sofa it was 7:28am. sigh. maybe it's a good thing. i wouldn't have the chance t bump into him or anything. i mean the over imaginative brain thinks.. what if he walks out with a girl! then the girl will be like oh who's tt from and then he'll be like dunno and just throw it away! wouldn't tt really break my heart and stuff?

but i actually like doing stuff like tt. maybe it's just the housewife instincts coming in. i don't want him t feel touched or guilty or even grateful. i just want to do it cos it keeps me happy.

i'm very inclined to text him and ask him how his test went. CONTROL... maybe i'll jus write a letter and burned it up or smth. i'm afraid if i leave letters he'll jus rip them up in front of the girl (OKAY THERE'S NO GIRL.. KEEP EMOTIONS IN CHECK) like he did natalie's note! isn't tt worst than me burning it up myself?

i remember he told me he'll stay in love even if we don't meet or contact each other. i know i can, but i worry tt he'll forget me. will he? ):

and water is avoiding me. i can tell. we bumped at the corridor and he just looked right at the floor. goodness i hope he didn't get the wrong idea... RIA'S interested.. not ME.

i think my lack of medication is getting to me. i'm getting hysterical with every word i type. signing off for now, ria's bought japanese food for me. hopefully i can have my first meal in days.
posted by joviee @ 11:06:00 AM

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i am relatively worried about the control those anti depressants have over my state of emotions. i forgot my medication this morning, and has been blowing up at everyone since. my mom, my friends.. i had to control my tempers with nicotine, and considering my sore throat, reds are very bad for me at this point of time. ): ah well at least their frm singapore.

wanted t leave breakfast and a good luck note outside his door today.. set my alarm to 5am and i actually woke up! but as i was putting the food into the oven i fell asleep again and by the time my mom woke me up on the sofa it was 7:28am. sigh. maybe it's a good thing. i wouldn't have the chance t bump into him or anything. i mean the over imaginative brain thinks.. what if he walks out with a girl! then the girl will be like oh who's tt from and then he'll be like dunno and just throw it away! wouldn't tt really break my heart and stuff?

but i actually like doing stuff like tt. maybe it's just the housewife instincts coming in. i don't want him t feel touched or guilty or even grateful. i just want to do it cos it keeps me happy.

i'm very inclined to text him and ask him how his test went. CONTROL... maybe i'll jus write a letter and burned it up or smth. i'm afraid if i leave letters he'll jus rip them up in front of the girl (OKAY THERE'S NO GIRL.. KEEP EMOTIONS IN CHECK) like he did natalie's note! isn't tt worst than me burning it up myself?

i remember he told me he'll stay in love even if we don't meet or contact each other. i know i can, but i worry tt he'll forget me. will he? ):

and water is avoiding me. i can tell. we bumped at the corridor and he just looked right at the floor. goodness i hope he didn't get the wrong idea... RIA'S interested.. not ME.

i think my lack of medication is getting to me. i'm getting hysterical with every word i type. signing off for now, ria's bought japanese food for me. hopefully i can have my first meal in days.
posted by joviee @ 11:06:00 AM

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