Thursday, May 04, 2006
May 04, 2006
I'm feeling terrible.
I can't seem to breathe properly, I've just vomitted despite having eaten NOTHING at all the entire day, my stomach's feeling queasy, I'm having a killer headache and a fever and worst of all, I'm really lethargic.
How can I be tired? I've slept from maybe 3am - 10 am today! And I've napped for at least a couple of hours too.
In an hour I have to meet Vicki to go down for singing lessons together. ): It's $50+ per session. I can't bring myself to skip it.
I'm really worried. Is this the side-effect of the anti-depressants? Jack told me not to take them. Said it slows down the mind, which is what calms a person down. I wonder if it's true.. slows the mind..
I can't afford to be tired and dumb right now, even if it makes me happier which it doesn't!
I've msged him. I'm really afraid of his answer, but really.. I feel like I have to know. This daily guesswork is killing me. If he does reply, I know he won't lie to me. Begged him to reply.
Sometimes it amazes me how relationships work. One person can just move on totally without a backward glance, while the other, engulfed by pain, falls into despondency and hopelessness.
posted by joviee @ 4:38:00 PM