Wednesday, May 10, 2006
10th May, 2006
i cannot believe myself.
i actually lost it and pestered him both on friendster and texts.
why isn't the medication helping? i've been taking those anti-depressants for 10 days already. only the anxiety one helped. when i woke up, i was burning inside. the thought this time was whether there's somebody else. i don't know why there's the burning. so i texted him. and i dragged myself out to take the pill and i calmed down, breathing regulate.
why can't i eat a single thing without vomitting? it's been three days since i've eaten. why do i feel tired all the time? the exams are here and i can't sit down and study.
why can't this happen after my o's? right smack in the middle of the year. i can't afford t flunk. i have to do well.
from the time i got home at 10 i've been sleeping and lying on the bed until now i'm finally forced out cos the aircon repair men are here.
am i just ill or am i just lovesick?
i'm sorry for this. sorry t him, sorry t my friends, sorry t myself.
posted by joviee @ 3:37:00 PM